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I am sitting here with tears leaking from the corners of my eyes This story is a true treasure Elizabeth has many feelings that we who lived through Women s Liberation dealt with but, as her Aunt Gardiner advised her, she had to resolve due to her limited choices Today we can keep much, if not all, of our independence even in a marriage we can earn wages, we can have hobbies, friendships and activities which allow us to have individuality beyond being Mrs somebody or other While I was gr I am sitting here with tears leaking from the corners of my eyes This story is a true treasure Elizabeth has many feelings that we who lived through Women s Liberation dealt with but, as her Aunt Gardiner advised her, she had to resolve due to her limited choices Today we can keep much, if not all, of our independence even in a marriage we can earn wages, we can have hobbies, friendships and activities which allow us to have individuality beyond being Mrs somebody or other While I was growing up women were expected to be housewives and nothing else My mother did work as a secretary due to economic necessity and there were choices to be a nurse or a teacher but not much else So Elizabeth fears marriage as a stifling of her needs, of her individuality There were so many emotional and or psychological journeys in this book We found a Bingley with muchof a backbone and knowing that what he needed was love Darcy perceives him as shrewd when He Darcy gets advice from Bingley We heard from Jane who was not afraid to get to know a man even when most of the time spent together was in company And Jane s insights as to the dynamics within her family were so right on Mr Bennet faces the results of his indolence and shows some resolve to take on his responsibilities, even in telling Elizabeth she can no longer possess the relationship she has solely maintained with her father.Further, as other have pointed out, Aunt Gardiner is a treasure Her words about the relationship in marriage hold true through the ages it is in the process of constant re adjustment that occurs after your vows have been spoken I am of the belief that so many think that on their our wedding day the prize has been won and they can sit on their laurels Both sides should see marriage as a work in progress So we as readers can take much from some of the thoughts the author sets down.I found such pleasure in reading the depth of feelings and the process of change, of maturing related in this book And it was not just Elizabeth we are seeing make some adjustments I usually like stories with lots of angst but while this story did not give us kidnappings, elopements, seductions, etc it did bring us to listen to sincere concepts as to what we need and what we want in a relationship and what we must also give from our half of that Internal struggles vs external herein I do have to say that there is a secondary minor story Ratcliffe Highway Murders from history, I had to look up and read this on Wikipedia which added some tension to the background here and even an attempted murder which gave closure to one wearying pestilence.There were some laughable moments Richard s viewpoint while listening to Collins sermon on Easter Sunday had me laughing out loud late at night as I couldn t put this book down I loved this Darcy and, as in canon, he has overcome his struggles as to his feelings a lot earlier in this book than does Elizabeth We read as he is rejected that he doesn t run from the field but takes another stance and don t we the readers, enjoy how this is interpreted by ODG But it is Elizabeth s growth that, I believe, will ultimately touch a chord and give you that almost feeling of exhaustion after considering, weighing and make judgments about one s needs and one s future.Side note I always enjoy the effort shown when authors find that appropriate piece of poetry or phrase from other literature to mark the start of a new chapter Well done here also Right at the beginning of the first chapter there is a quote by Albert Camus Life is the sum of all your choices To me this best describes the book as well Due to the choices decisions made by Mr and Mrs Bennet, Jane and Elizabeth were greatly embarrassed during the Netherfield Ball held by Mr Bingley Jane is concerned that because of the behaviour of her family, Elizabeth not included, she fears that Mr Bingley will not offer for her After discussing the humiliation with Elizabeth, Right at the beginning of the first chapter there is a quote by Albert Camus Life is the sum of all your choices To me this best describes the book as well Due to the choices decisions made by Mr and Mrs Bennet, Jane and Elizabeth were greatly embarrassed during the Netherfield Ball held by Mr Bingley Jane is concerned that because of the behaviour of her family, Elizabeth not included, she fears that Mr Bingley will not offer for her After discussing the humiliation with Elizabeth, they both decide that something must be done During lunch, the perfect opening is presented to Elizabeth to bring to her father s attention the poor behaviour of Kitty and Lydia and their consumption of Champagne during the ball Jane too mentions that Miss Caroline Bingley herself noticed as well So begins the changes in the Bennet household Darcy in the meantime, is trying to persuade Charles not to offer for Jane due to connecting himself with such a family Charles in this story isgrounded and realistic, especially regarding what he wants out of life And he wants Jane I truly enjoyed this Charles Bingley I also enjoyed Jane for her quiet serene maturity However, this book isabout Elizabeth and her fear of marriage and opening her heart to another Her insecurities are founded in viewing the unequal marriage of her parents over the years She is not willing to take a chance in allowing any man that power over her Without the wise advise of her Aunt Gardiner, Elizabeth would still have blinkers on since her view was so narrow Darcy had his own struggles to overcome but he did so sooner than Elizabeth When he asks for advice from Bingley after being rejected by Elizabeth, he chooses to continue to fight for her as he knows they are kindred spirits Overall, I enjoyed this book The historical bits thrown in didn t, in my opinion, move the story along one way or the other What I wasn t expecting was the abrupt ending and then a quick epilogue Worry not that your child listens to you worry most that they watch you Ronald A Heifetz This was a clean, but not a quick read, and yet, I stayed up late and read it straight through I simply could not put it down and there is simply too much to cover in a review In every JAFF variation, there are those little things that we always wish would happen Example Bingley would put on his big boy pants Jane would stand up for herself The younger silly Bennet sisters, and their mother, would Worry not that your child listens to you worry most that they watch you Ronald A Heifetz This was a clean, but not a quick read, and yet, I stayed up late and read it straight through I simply could not put it down and there is simply too much to cover in a review In every JAFF variation, there are those little things that we always wish would happen Example Bingley would put on his big boy pants Jane would stand up for herself The younger silly Bennet sisters, and their mother, would be reined in, and Mr Bennet would wake up and see the situation in his own home and so on Well, in his variation many of those things happened We open post Netherfield Ball Bingley has left on his business trip to London, unaware that his sisters have closed the house and followed him Jane and Elizabeth are deconstructing the behavior of their family at the ball and have decided it s time to make some changes at the Bennet household During lunch, the discussion of their younger sisters drunk and disorderly behavior alarms their father and nearly causes their mother to faint Meanwhile, in London, Bingley and Darcy have that discussion about Bingley s choice of Miss Bennet and Bingley lets Darcy know that he is his own man and will make his own decisions thank you very much Bingley fully intends to return to Hertfordshire as planned regardless of what his friend or sisters think or want Well, that certainly puts things into perspective.This was a very strange story I ve not read this author before and their writing style was very unusual On the surface, it was a very good variation However, there wasto it than that It was an intense introspection that dug deep into the psyche of both Darcy and Elizabeth I was nearly in tears as our author pulled emotions and feelings out of our dear couple It hurt to see how damaged each was by events and situations of their past, and events of their present There was humor I will never again think of Easter in Kent in the same way OMG Our dear Colonel and Lady Catherine was an absolute hoot To see our dear Colonel, of His Majesty s Service, reduced to a five year old while being chided by his aunt, was a scream There were several places in the story that just made me laugh out loud Darcy s dog in the study was another scene that left me bent over laughing I believe that what we become depends on what our fathers teach us at odd moments, when they aren t trying to teach us We are formed by little scraps of wisdom Umberto Eco, Foucault s PendulumThe author brought me to tears, along with Elizabeth, as she struggled with her feelings and emotions We have a scarred young lady who, observing the marriage of her parents, vowed that she would rather never marry, than live such a life With such a twisted view of marriage, Darcy never stood a chance with her She had built such a solid fortress around her heart and soul, that it was near impossible for him to breach the perimeter However, never underestimate Mr Darcy, as he was not above scaling the walls This was an endearing story as we struggled with Darcy and his own troubled feelings I ached with him as he evaluated his own views on marriage, his friendship with Bingley I nearly cried , and what he wanted in a partner Man, that was hard however, nothing worth having comes easy We have the Bingley and Jane story That was so delightful I just love this Bingley Man where has he been all this time He certainly had a surprise for Caroline Speaking of surprises there were lots of surprises at Longbourn Man, what a difference However, I won t spoil it.There was also a big surprise with Wickham that was so UNREAL OMG What was he thinking But, what Darcy said to him was the most awesome amazing thing regarding the elder Mr Darcy I ve never seen it and it was so profound YES Wickham so needed to hear how the elder Darcy really felt about his son Working through emotions, phobias terror , control issues, and resistance to giving up her independence was hard on ODG our dear girl and time consuming Many JAFF stories has her hating Mr Darcy and then loving him, within the span of a few pages Not so here This was a major struggle that Elizabeth had to work through Our modern sensibilities simply do not understand that she was an innocent She had never touched a man before, had never been near a man, in the presence of, or been alone with a man other than relatives And now, all of a sudden, she was supposed to just trust him Marriages, of that time period, were very difficult to define and she had a lot to decide I loved the epilogue OMG Dear reader,This is a very different variation of our beloved P P This tale introduces to us a Lizzy that is very unsure of the path that lays ahead for her Having rejected two marriage proposals at a young age,Lizzy believes that not only will she never marry,but that she is incapable of loving a man.Yes,you read that correctly Having been a witness to the unhappy marriage of her parents,she has no desire to enter into a similar one She feels that marriage automatically leads to the woman l Dear reader,This is a very different variation of our beloved PP This tale introduces to us a Lizzy that is very unsure of the path that lays ahead for her Having rejected two marriage proposals at a young age,Lizzy believes that not only will she never marry,but that she is incapable of loving a man.Yes,you read that correctly Having been a witness to the unhappy marriage of her parents,she has no desire to enter into a similar one She feels that marriage automatically leads to the woman loosing what little independence she has and therefore would rather remain single than be subservient to her husband She also feels that she would become subsumed by her husband s wishes,to the detriment of her own However,after a stern and quite frank talk with her aunt Gardiner,she quickly realises that obtaining a position as a governess is not what she should truly aim for in life She is encouraged to explore her feelings for a certain gentleman,whom her aunt believes has tender feelings for her It is then that she embarks on an inner journey of the mind,as she ponders why she is afraid of revealing her feelings,why she fears allowing herself to fall in love and and enter into the unique maelstrom that that entails Darcy too is not without his demons as he struggles to overcome his attraction to Lizzy However when he realises he is not just infatuated with her but that he simply loves her,he sets himself on a course to woo an emotionally scared but potentially very passionate and loving Lizzy This is a beautiful story,one which I highly recommend I received this as a surprise gift from a GR friend,to whom I would like to say thank you [ FREE PDF ] ☪ Becoming Elizabeth: A Pride and Prejudice Variation ☲ Becoming Elizabeth A Pride and Prejudice Variation Madeline Gardiner drew breath I had never thought it before, but it occurred to me today that Thomas Bennet has not been a very good husband He has reduced Fanny into something very close to a joke in that house Lizzie Bennet, a reigning belle in the district of Meryton and the smartest person in her father s house fears marriage She is afraid of being controlled and can t imagine anything worse than becoming like her mother an object of derision to her husband and family Family circumstances dictate that the Bennet girls must marry but can Lizzie find the maturity to overcome her fears and begin the changes that will lead towards her becoming Elizabeth Fitzwilliam Darcy has his problems too Wealth, status and family expectations have moulded his public behaviour But behind his proud, cynical exterior lies an intelligent, passionate man, longing for an equally intelligent and passionate partner in life Circumstances have brought them together, but can two such strong personalities find each other through the welter of conflicting forces that hold them apart Becoming Elizabeth A Pride and Prejudice VariationVery different story from many other Darcy and Elizabeth variations This Elizabeth was uncertain about her life and just what direction it was taking Not sure she wanted to lose her independent life of doing what she wished, even blocks her heart with a wall so high, no one could get close to her She was just twenty and part of her reluctance was immaturity and now remembering that she had little to recommend herself to a man, so she must thi Becoming Elizabeth A Pride and Prejudice VariationVery different story from many other Darcy and Elizabeth variations This Elizabeth was uncertain about her life and just what direction it was taking Not sure she wanted to lose her independent life of doing what she wished, even blocks her heart with a wall so high, no one could get close to her She was just twenty and part of her reluctance was immaturity and now remembering that she had little to recommend herself to a man, so she must think of marriage Her aunt keeps asking her about Mr Darcy, but Elizabeth tells her he thinks she barely tolerable and she had heard his discussion about Jane and Bingley with Caroline Bingley Back in London the day after Bingley s return for business, Darcy attempts to dissuade Bingley from marrying Jane But Bingley holds his ground with Darcy and tells him he d rather forgo being one of the members of the Ton, and marry for love and happiness rather than a marriage of convenience If that s what Darcy would settled for then it was his choice, but not Bingley s Elizabeth was sure she wanted to become a governess, but her Aunt reminded her of working conditions of those in service Realizing that she had already turned down two marriage proposals, one from George Lucas at eighteen and Mr Collins at twenty, Elizabeth decides marriage is probably her only alternative but she ll not mould to anyone s whims, she would not give up her independence Wicked Wickham surfaces at Darcy House and tries to kill Darcy Richard comes in to help restrain Wickham and uses all the debts he s paid for him childhood tormentors Elizabeth is returning to Longbourn, having accompanied Lydia to London The embarrassment of Lydia s behavior at the Netherfield Ball quickly warranted her removal under the Gardiners watchful eyes Lydia would be the downfall of her family When Elizabeth returns, she finds her family much subdued Lydia was the lynchpin that kept the family in turmoil Her family was changing for the better The day of the wedding rehearsal, Elizabeth is seen by her Aunt, playing with two men s affections George Lucas and Fitzwilliam Darcy Aunt Gardiner tells her that this inappropriate behavior for a woman that had no possibilities except marriage and that she was acting worse than Lydia She runs out of the room crying and when Darcy leaves he s determine to end this relationship for her sake As he gains passage of the gates he hears sobbing He tells her that he with draws his attentions, and she begins crying evenShe s determined to stop acting like a child and tells him that her and the Gardiners will be traveling to the Lake region Darcy invites them to Pemberley They agree, and Elizabeth has two weeks before giving Darcy an answer about their marriage Meanwhile, Colonel Fitzwilliam plans to sell his commission and raise horses Darcy offers him the use of the house on the property he just bought at the northern edge of Pemberley Fitzwilliam Darcy plans to woo her properly It is at Pemberley that she realizes that she loves him and that he is her equal in all that s important In the end, they are happily married, and she finally has to share her favourite Wordsworth s poem When she recites the poem, it is Darcy s favourite also She acknowledges that when she opened his old book, the page opened to that poem She asks him if he s well read, and he says, no, he s well loved It was unusual to see Elizabeth with thoughts of inadequacies, fears of the unknown, and worry that her marriage would be like that of her parents before they both changed It was amazing to see Darcy s transformation also Good story Unfortunately, I did not care for this one 2.5 stars rounded down.I did like theassertive Bingley, and that Darcy acknowledged to himself that he was dependent on Bingley for his social skills The general progression of the plot was fine, too, but only at a broad outline level In the details, there were things inserted that felt very like heavy handed plot devices rather than seamless parts of the story With the murders in London, there was unnecessary gruesome detail, too, that seemed Unfortunately, I did not care for this one 2.5 stars rounded down.I did like theassertive Bingley, and that Darcy acknowledged to himself that he was dependent on Bingley for his social skills The general progression of the plot was fine, too, but only at a broad outline level In the details, there were things inserted that felt very like heavy handed plot devices rather than seamless parts of the story With the murders in London, there was unnecessary gruesome detail, too, that seemed out of place in this type of story Darcy spends multiple paragraphs citing philosophy and considering the text Elizabeth ran hot and cold in her interactions with Darcy None of the characters had to earn the changes in their behavior or personality it was mentioned as being needed, and then in the next scene it was changed view spoiler And where in the world did the whole thing with Lady Catherine accusing Richard of having a liaison with Elizabeth come from It seemed totally out of the blue to me hide spoiler My biggest issue, though, was something I noticed really early in the story and probably could have disregarded, if the rest hadn t bugged me However, because of the rest being added, this seemed to stand out that muchThe characters spoke farfreely than seemed proper or in character, not hesitating to express their opinions about other people or situations It seemed to apply to everyone Elizabeth speaks out about her sisters behavior at the ball Mrs Gardiner gives Elizabeth a set down about her behavior toward Darcy Lady Marion Matlock Can t remember pulls a nice Lady Catherineand plentyIt all just seemed so weird.There were some distracting typos and formatting errors, particularly with quotation marks A couple of times names were spelled incorrectly Again, things I could have ignored if the story overall had resonated Wonderful I have read many, many variations derived from Pride and Prejudice but this one is hands down the very best Unbelievably great character development I love this book Second time readingI understood the story better on second reading I am glad I reread it.A masterful story of a person not quite adult and having to overcome her fears while not quite able to, on her own.And legitimate fears they are She must soon find her way and find herself fore she cannot live at home forever and there is no safety for her that she can trust, being a female in Regency England An intelligent person in her situation would of course be filled with horrors and sadness.Luckily Second time readingI understood the story better on second reading I am glad I reread it.A masterful story of a person not quite adult and having to overcome her fears while not quite able to, on her own.And legitimate fears they are She must soon find her way and find herself fore she cannot live at home forever and there is no safety for her that she can trust, being a female in Regency England An intelligent person in her situation would of course be filled with horrors and sadness.Luckily Elizabeth has some good, wise people to help her Jane is her rock and her confidant She even tells Lizzy the truth when it hurts her Then there is her aunt Gardiner She can tell Lizzy about the lack of safety being a companion or governess Her aunt seems to be the only one who realizes Lizzy s abject fear of intimacy and tries to help her through that hurdle.This is not the strong Lizzy that can overcome everything and anything on her own This a Lizzy who is like us all Confused and in need of guidance about the world I recommend this book highly And pray for the people without a Jane or Aunt Gardiner in their life Different and interestingI found this story original and intriguing A wonderfully novel plot that allows the reader a glimpse into the minds of both Darcy and Elizabeth.Very entertaining